My journals and writing from my time on the street can be found on my ministry blog
bensywamblog.blogspot.com
Thank you guys for your interest
-B3n
Monday, August 16, 2010
Journal of a homeless man
Most of you know that I spent last week living as a homeless man in Chicago. I kept journals and writings while I was there in order to keep the memories.
My journals and writing from my time on the street can be found on my ministry blog
bensywamblog.blogspot.com
Thank you guys for your interest
-B3n
My journals and writing from my time on the street can be found on my ministry blog
bensywamblog.blogspot.com
Thank you guys for your interest
-B3n
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Homeless in Chicago
Maybe I and just crazy, or maybe I'm on to something. This next week I will be living homeless in Chicago. I won't have my cell or credit cards on me. Just trying to survive and learn from the experience.
About this time last year God put it on my heart to do this. After a year of planning and planning it is finally here. I don't know what is in store, but I am sure that God will put people and experience in the way for me. I feel like this is where I am supposed to go, God has out peace in my mind about the trip.
It is still going to cost me money to get there but very little will be needed for finances otherwise.
As far as support I really need your prayers for me on this trip. I am not worried about the trip but it definitely needs to be bathed in prayer.
Next week I will be daily posting my journal on the blog. I figure it would be good to keep a daily journal of what goes on and I will put that up for all of you to read. Pray for my safety, my ministry and connecting with people on the street, safety traveling for me and my girlfriend who is bringing me.
Thank you all for your support and prayers, let's see what God does.
God bless
-B3n
About this time last year God put it on my heart to do this. After a year of planning and planning it is finally here. I don't know what is in store, but I am sure that God will put people and experience in the way for me. I feel like this is where I am supposed to go, God has out peace in my mind about the trip.
It is still going to cost me money to get there but very little will be needed for finances otherwise.
As far as support I really need your prayers for me on this trip. I am not worried about the trip but it definitely needs to be bathed in prayer.
Next week I will be daily posting my journal on the blog. I figure it would be good to keep a daily journal of what goes on and I will put that up for all of you to read. Pray for my safety, my ministry and connecting with people on the street, safety traveling for me and my girlfriend who is bringing me.
Thank you all for your support and prayers, let's see what God does.
God bless
-B3n
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Monday, May 3, 2010
My Rose
Trapped in this desert, a barren land.
living in the gloom, surrounded by sand.
however shall I find a thriving oasis,
a relieving place to free me from this stasis.
Am I stuck in this hole to wander alone?
Is this the place I have been sown?
what is this beautiful flower? a Rose?
rare glory deserving of great prose.
how can something so divine be here?
know this marvelous gain is you my dear.
feels like a dream to find a woman so fair
in a place where such things come so rare.
you are a God given gift so far above the norm,
worth holding on to through every trial, trouble and storm.
how did I ever deserve this treasure? my Rose.
living in the gloom, surrounded by sand.
however shall I find a thriving oasis,
a relieving place to free me from this stasis.
Am I stuck in this hole to wander alone?
Is this the place I have been sown?
what is this beautiful flower? a Rose?
rare glory deserving of great prose.
how can something so divine be here?
know this marvelous gain is you my dear.
feels like a dream to find a woman so fair
in a place where such things come so rare.
you are a God given gift so far above the norm,
worth holding on to through every trial, trouble and storm.
how did I ever deserve this treasure? my Rose.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Hands
One Girl I "dated" used to say I have the ultimate "man hands". Dry, covered in scars, deformed at parts and often bleeding from cuts and dried scars; they are the ultimate tool of a working man. My hands have been through everything like; being bitten, scraped, burned, cut, broken, and more. The most noticeable part being the scars across the top of my knuckles.( thus giving me the nickname "knuckles")
Every year about winter time my hands start to dry out from the weather. Since the skin on my knuckles is scar tissue it dries out the worst. When dry, scar tissue is very hard to get moisturized and keep it there. Once the cold and dry weather sets in my hands are done for; the knuckles dry out and crack open. This brings me a lot of pain having open knuckles with all I do to my hands. Chemicals, hot water, and just about anything that touches my hand amplifies the pain felt by the open wounds across the back of the hand. There have been many nights I have not been able to get to sleep because my hands hurt so bad. It sucks working at a coffee shop and dealing with hot liquids and chemicals all the time.
A person uses their hands so much how could you help but be reminded of the wounds you have.
With our hands we inflict and receive pain to others. We use them to build and destroy the physical, they are the means to interact with material things. I just thought of a little prayer about my hands to say during my problems
"God,
Here are my hands; broken, imperfect and hurting.
Seems they are not too far off from what I was and currently am.
Lord, that in my pain it would remain a reminded of what you have done for me.
That in my pain I would be something that sets my heart to bring peace and love to others.
Oh, my hands are because of what they have been through, not too different from what I now am.
Thank you, even for the pain. You are good."
Every year about winter time my hands start to dry out from the weather. Since the skin on my knuckles is scar tissue it dries out the worst. When dry, scar tissue is very hard to get moisturized and keep it there. Once the cold and dry weather sets in my hands are done for; the knuckles dry out and crack open. This brings me a lot of pain having open knuckles with all I do to my hands. Chemicals, hot water, and just about anything that touches my hand amplifies the pain felt by the open wounds across the back of the hand. There have been many nights I have not been able to get to sleep because my hands hurt so bad. It sucks working at a coffee shop and dealing with hot liquids and chemicals all the time.
A person uses their hands so much how could you help but be reminded of the wounds you have.
With our hands we inflict and receive pain to others. We use them to build and destroy the physical, they are the means to interact with material things. I just thought of a little prayer about my hands to say during my problems
"God,
Here are my hands; broken, imperfect and hurting.
Seems they are not too far off from what I was and currently am.
Lord, that in my pain it would remain a reminded of what you have done for me.
That in my pain I would be something that sets my heart to bring peace and love to others.
Oh, my hands are because of what they have been through, not too different from what I now am.
Thank you, even for the pain. You are good."
Friday, February 12, 2010
Marvel comics angers tea baggers.
Let me start of with a laugh......hahahahahahahahahahahahaha! Okay, now that thats out of my system let me explain.
I work part time (might as well be considered full time) at a local coffee shop here in Lima, Ohio. On the side of the shop we have a conference room that we rent out to groups in the community. We have one group in particular that really gets on my last nerve, The Allen County Patriots.
The Allen County Patriots are an extremely Right-wing group that meets in here on thursday nights. The only thing I like about them is when one member tells them to, they tip really well. There are a few people in the group who seen to be really great people, but most of them are what I would label as nuts. I have had a few different private conversations with a bunch of them and I find them at best to be very homophobic, racist, one sided, religiously blind, ignorant and more that I will not say in order to keep this PG. Remember gay Pepsi coke guy? (from a post a few months ago) ya, thats the constant foolish thinking I deal with in this group.
Now don't get me wrong, I am not a liberal, nor am I conservative. I find that both sides take their thinking to extremes and are too one sided for me.
There is not one person of the considerable "minority" in their group. It is very understandable considering their racist point of view. I wanted to announce to the group one day that if they want and feel more comfortable; "we will allow them to wear their bed sheets and pillow cases as long as they don't set anything on fire". As the manager, this would most likely just get me fired, especially since 2 of the 4 owners are part of this group.
Marvel Comics' Captain America has always been fighting for the American way of life against all who would threaten to destroy it (No Bush is not the same person). In a new comic released by Marvel Captain America is trying to investigate along with his African-American sidekick the Falcon a right-wing anti-government group called "the watchdogs". He sends Falcon to watch them from the rooftops at a tea-party protest. He realizes that trying to be with the group an infiltrate them will not work with a "black man from Harlem fitting in with a bunch of angry white folks".
This comic has sparked much controversy with multiple tea-party groups for the depiction of their organizations. Thought not completely true of all of them, so far from what I have seen it is not too far off from the truth. United States of America? I think not, the states are but the people are not. Why did is stir up such controversy and anger? Maybe it is questionable because its not too far off from the truth.
I found the article on Yahoo!
P.S. the group announced once that they should start working in conjunction with the Allen County Tea-Baggers. I thought they said the wrong thing. I just recently learned what a tea-bagger really was in that situation. Being from a younger generation with video games to tea-bag is a completely different action. lol. I would like to tea-bag the tea-baggers. ROFL!!!
I work part time (might as well be considered full time) at a local coffee shop here in Lima, Ohio. On the side of the shop we have a conference room that we rent out to groups in the community. We have one group in particular that really gets on my last nerve, The Allen County Patriots.
The Allen County Patriots are an extremely Right-wing group that meets in here on thursday nights. The only thing I like about them is when one member tells them to, they tip really well. There are a few people in the group who seen to be really great people, but most of them are what I would label as nuts. I have had a few different private conversations with a bunch of them and I find them at best to be very homophobic, racist, one sided, religiously blind, ignorant and more that I will not say in order to keep this PG. Remember gay Pepsi coke guy? (from a post a few months ago) ya, thats the constant foolish thinking I deal with in this group.
Now don't get me wrong, I am not a liberal, nor am I conservative. I find that both sides take their thinking to extremes and are too one sided for me.
There is not one person of the considerable "minority" in their group. It is very understandable considering their racist point of view. I wanted to announce to the group one day that if they want and feel more comfortable; "we will allow them to wear their bed sheets and pillow cases as long as they don't set anything on fire". As the manager, this would most likely just get me fired, especially since 2 of the 4 owners are part of this group.
Marvel Comics' Captain America has always been fighting for the American way of life against all who would threaten to destroy it (No Bush is not the same person). In a new comic released by Marvel Captain America is trying to investigate along with his African-American sidekick the Falcon a right-wing anti-government group called "the watchdogs". He sends Falcon to watch them from the rooftops at a tea-party protest. He realizes that trying to be with the group an infiltrate them will not work with a "black man from Harlem fitting in with a bunch of angry white folks".
This comic has sparked much controversy with multiple tea-party groups for the depiction of their organizations. Thought not completely true of all of them, so far from what I have seen it is not too far off from the truth. United States of America? I think not, the states are but the people are not. Why did is stir up such controversy and anger? Maybe it is questionable because its not too far off from the truth.
I found the article on Yahoo!
P.S. the group announced once that they should start working in conjunction with the Allen County Tea-Baggers. I thought they said the wrong thing. I just recently learned what a tea-bagger really was in that situation. Being from a younger generation with video games to tea-bag is a completely different action. lol. I would like to tea-bag the tea-baggers. ROFL!!!
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